What would you do if you could send a letter to you 10 years ago? It would be a huge opportunity to do everything different, wouldn’t it?
As I know myself very well, I would only advise in trying to calm my mind that at that moment was very restless, extremely worried and too afraid to do everything wrong. It would be something like this:
I know how much you don’t feel ready for life and motherhood.
I know you will go through complicated moments, unexpected abandon, demands of others disguised as good counsel and countless evil whispers. All of this will bring you disappointments and it is very natural that’s happens, because they were people who inspired you.
I know how lonely you feel right now, but hey! Look at your side!! There’s this little boy who sees you as the only person in his life! He feels very happy and safe when you’re around and considers you the most amazing person in the world! He finds you a wonderful mother and who has direct contact with God, for everything you ask of him — He accomplishes!
It’s okay to be worried about things, that’s a sign you’ve grown!
It’s okay if everyone thinks you do it all wrong, but if it’s right for you, the people’s opinion is null and void.
It’s okay if you don’t have too many people around, it’s better to be next to those who really love you than people who intoxicate your mind.
You don’t have to be afraid to be a mom, just be yourself — be the mom you always wanted and dreamed. Take a note: You will do very well.
Don’t be afraid to follow your second sight — no one knows what’s best for you.
And lastly, if necessary — make yourself clear! After all, both lives is your responsibility and it’s not up to anyone butt in!!
Calm down your heart, you own an incredible faith and Pheter is your family now!
With love, you @ 2019.